I want to be perfect. I know this thought sounds like a silly thing to say and honestly, I don’t think I could speak the words. In type, it’s not that hard to admit (even though I know the world can read it—all 3 of you who read this blog.) Perfection for me has nothing to do with what I look like, obviously. I would in no way say that my appearance is what I strive for in perfection. It’s the mommy world that I have set this goal for myself. I’m going to go out on a limb and say that most mommies do. We all probably tell ourselves that we know we can’t be perfect, but the desire is still there. This is why we overbook our schedules, overwork our jobs, and over clean our homes in our everyday life. Sure, it may not all get done like we had imagined, but isn’t that still the focus? Or is it just mine?
So why would I make my debut article on “Happiest mommies” about this quirk of mine? I think it helps with the understanding of me. I also think it’s a huge challenge for the mommies of today. It almost seems expected to juggle a million things or people wonder what you are doing. I have a new situation in the mommy-world because I am the “out of the house” worker while my husband takes on the household duties. This is a new thing for us and it sometime clashes with my perfection idea. I try to take that in stride and not set up too many tasks for him to complete as I try to mold him into the perfect daddy in mommy-world (he’s already pretty darn good.) It also lends itself to having to cram in all the mommy things I want to do into the weekends to keep up the pride of perfection.
This perfect thing is always in the back of my mind when I am coming up with a new craft, designing a party, or going to work every day. Sometimes I will take on tasks that are too big and sometimes I get overwhelmed. There are days when I have to give up a project because I realize it’s taking me away from my first responsibility, my children. But I also know that I have to keep all these other projects in my life because I accept that is who I am. I enjoy the challenge of throwing several balls in the air and masterfully keeping them moving in the circle motion. I get a re-charge whenever I’m losing steam when someone else tells me “I don’t know how you do it all.” So I will stay on the bumpy road to perfection, knowing it’s a destination that does not exist. Why? Because this is the type of mommy I am and this life is what makes me the happiest mommy.